All right. First let me start off by saying:
NO I am not suicidal.
NO I do not wish to die.
NO I am not planning anything that would endanger my life or anyone else's.
NO there is no chance of my planning to destroy things coming true.
NO just NO.
Now that I have gotten that out of the way I am going to explain how I sort my poems.
Chaos: The beginning, were it all started. These poems are on beginning, birth, chaos.
Darkness: Things that have happened and that I cannot change.
Death: Ending not yet ended
Graveyard: all the rough drafts and old poems
Nightmares: Thing I wish I could change, I wish would happen, or things that would never will.
In all reality I wrote these poems to express something. My fear, my insecurity, my feelings of anger, self-loathing, and of being unwanted. In fact, the poem A Poem of Frustrations is a one sided conversation with several different teachers that I have had. However the poem The Hydromancer it was written originally describing a class I had and it turned in to the feeling of drowning that I get when things go to faster than I can reasonably handle. The poem I remember take me back to summers spent with books as my best friends. Am I wrong? That title is kind of self-explanatory, but it was a response to a poem that a classmate wrote. Choking is about how I feel when a class discussion is held. I just can't seem to talk and when I do, it never comes out right.
The fact that you are reading this is a testament to how far I have come.
Thanks for reading,